grace

"Allah is the one who knows everyhing.. Allah is the one who creates us.. a creator knows what's the best for what he create.. so does Allah.. Allah knows the best.. maybe at that time, you couldn't see it.. but as the time goes by, you will see.. and you will be much much graceful for your way.."

that's right.. Allah knows the best.. maybe you don't like it, but somehow what you don't like is the best for you, if only you knew..

i've connected to my past college friends via bbm.. when i see how are they now, i just feel graceful.. how hard they work are.. my friend, a woman, works in a mine industry, somewhere far away.. far from Jakarta.. in her pict, she wears a helmet, just like a worker in mine industry.. sits in a tractor.. i just can't imagine if i were her.. can I pass it? am I strong enough?

meanwhile, here, in bogor, at first, i used to grumpy.. i want in jakarta, not in bogor.. here, in this so comfortable place, i used to got sick.. if i were her, what would i be?

eventhough it has been my very very old dream, it has became my inspiration, my all inspiration.. my spirit.. i wrote it big in all my books, that i have to study hard, stay focus, keep my spirit on, so i will reach it.. my dream college..

Allah has given me a chance.. chance to reach my dream.. i'm so graceful for it.. so happy, so excited.. but Allah also knows, that it isn't the best for me, i won't suit with it.. so Allah guided me to go out of there..

i accepted in D3 majority, something that out of my expectation.. i was registered to D1 majority at first.. and if only i was accepted in D1, i wouldn't take it.. but Allah said different..

subhanallah.. how great what Allah has given me.. how much.. and still i'm not realize it.. i didn't graceful much... ;(

Allah..
thank's for everything..
thank's for loving me..
please, always stays with me.. always guides me.. to the right path.. to become better.. to become closer to you..

Alhamdulillah
:)